The Free Will

This is some sort of rambling/rant/whine of a delusional girl with twisted mind and dark personalities, please bear those cautions in mind when you’re reading the following post…
Mostly… because it’s rather random and personal and impersonal at the same time xDDD
Anyhow, click on your own risk.

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So,
it’s been 25 days 3 hours and 21 minutes since I last heard any news or see my cat.
Yeah yeah, I know that it might sound so hyperbolic or whatsoever. But hey, I love my cat. I love him. No matter what my sis said about him, no matter how lazy he is, or how perverted he is… I love Bon.
I forgot when it really started, I mean, I like cats, but I never into one like this before. I never took a cat… it’s always someone else and I just helped out.
I think it’s started when I saw my mom feed him, and she said that he always stood on our kitchen’s door every morning, waiting for some food. Or if my mom didn’t come out around the usual hour, he would scratch the door and started meowing. Then mom mentioned that he’s one of the kittens that was born in our front porch (no, don’t ask me… I know I’m that awesome that I didn’t even notice there were some kittens in my house ._.)
Then slowly, I let him entered the house. He didn’t wander around though, just around the kitchen or so, waiting for me or mom to feed him. And there was one time where I snapped the door when he just jumped in. Hmm… you see, my kitchen door consists of 2 parts, the door and a small window. Most of the time we left the door closed but the window open, but in my case, I prefer to keep them closed. So, that day, Bon jumped to the door when I banged the window closed ._.
My sis said that I was driven by my guilty conscience so I took him in, and let him wandering inside the house. I even let him come to my room (a holy place for me and totally hellish as well as forbidden for other people xD).
In short, Bon is special (for me, of course). He’s one lazy cat who loves to eat and curls in my lap, taking over my bed, and linked nose with me xDDD >/////<
I do miss him… I even stare at his pictures in my facebook account just to delved more into sorrow… Meh, I sound so masochistic xD

I was planning to put his picture here, but then I changed my mind since it can hurt me more ;_;
Bon~~~~ I miss you~~~~ <3333

Song mood: Michael Learns To Rock – 25 Minutes

Hmm… a poem… out of randomness -as usual-

Say, its just another day

But hey, it’s not as easy as I say

There’s no simple wish

It’s just like asking me to stop being selfish

I’m deeply infatuated

Totally captivated

I feel like some sort of prisoner

Helpless and hardly have any power

I do wish to go somewhere new

Probably as far as Timbuktu

And there’s just me and you

Just us two, and not even a dog named Boo

Now, the question is…

would you?

Song Mood: Arctic Monkeys – Dance Little Liar; Death Cab for Cutie – I Will Possess Your Heart; Lisa Loeb – Stay; Travis – Flower In The Window; Sting – Englishman in New York; Lady Gaga – Bad Romance

Okay… sorry about the loud profanity as the title. But I’ve been wanting to say that line for the last two or three days.
*sighs*

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